Four days will quickly steep themselves in nights; Four nights will quickly dream away the time.
William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night’s Dream
Sixty-Six goals in the month of October. At this moment, I’m sitting with fifty-three completed, which puts this month as my best completion percent since I started tracking. I like the sound of that, but the month’s not over yet. Today’s still young… enough… and there are two days left. I’ve got the overambitious need to hit 100%, but I’m not sure I have the time or talent to do that with what’s left.
Younger me would be a little put out by my acceptance of not getting everything done. The me that wanted everything – wanted to be everything, to do everything. It’s taken me a long time to grow out of that. If I’m honest, I’m stilly not fully out of the woods, but I’ve made some great strides to allow myself a bit of grace. I’m no Superman. Time waits for no man, etc. etc. After all, younger me didn’t have a family. He didn’t have things that mattered more than this ever-present need to do stuff.
There’s a part of me that does still envy that younger me. Just a bit. The sheer audacity I had to assume that there were enough hours in the day to be a game designer, author, and artist, to dabble in music well enough to be competent, to compete in a few different games, hold a full time job, and have a life / family. It’s a cute bit of naiveite, no? Thank God middle age crept in and told me to grow up and accept life the way it is, not the way I wanted it to be. Otherwise, I’d probably never have managed to get anything done.
As it stands, I’m on track to finish the last of my month’s writing goals today or tomorrow. With those out of the way, a quick family meeting to determine plans for our home office is next, and then it’s out to the garage for some cutting and woodworking build prep. Finally, I have to get out of my own head and do a just a liiiittle bit better in my competitive gaming and all that will be left is everyone’s favorite – just a couple days left to “not be a bitch.”
Doable? Yes. But, also, the kiddos want to play some games and watch some shows with me, so that’s first on the list. They’re more important than all of this, after all.
Next month will be a rough one. Work’s going to pick up in a big way, there’s no stopping that, and now that I’ve finally kicked off my writing rust enough to be confident I’m not going to screw things up, it’s time to get cracking on the middle of Residuum‘s edits. Big ones. I’m excited for that, though. Lot of positive changes there. Hopefully enough to get this thing ready to present to agents, soon.
I might have gotten rid of most of those desires to overreach, but I can’t have all my dreams fade on me. The bookshelves are still waiting.
Until next week, Dwellers. Close this month out well.
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